gab wrote:hello all
i have skimmed through this thread and can relate to most of what you're all saying, karate as a coping mechanism in terms of taking one's mind off of things, also the relief when you hand yourself over to somebody's commands for an hour or so. but lately, i started to be angry at myself in the sense that i crave handing myself over, and that surely can't be a good thing? so am not training 'coz i need to live a life outside of dojo and that submission of my mind there started messing up with my life. whaddaya all say?
I'm just assuming (knowing no better) that you feel your training's taking over the rest of your life (something I'm sure we can all recognise at one point or another) but it's fairly natural for people to become "obsessed" with some hobby or another.
I said that handing myself over to someone in the dojo helped me to forget my other troubles for a short while, but I was always aware they'd be right there as soon as class ended. I didn't see it as a submission to someone else's will, more someone distracting me for a while but allowing me the luxury of not having to think about my problems. These days there are all sorts of "boot camp" circuit training classes that I imagine would achieve the same and possibly hurt nearly as much! If you look at it like that there's less chance of feeling like it's the bad side of the sensei/student "I control your @ss" scenario
But hey, a break should show you one way or the other what the situation is and you'll take it from there.